The Variables of Jums
“Huwag kang magtatanim ng galit,” my grandma used to say. She said if I did anything, it was to never sow seeds of anger in my heart. To her, keeping grudges was a mortal sin. I remember using that against her as a kid, but I don’t exactly remember how or what was said. All […]
My love for you scares me. Life has taught me that things end, even when you don’t want them to. Even when you force them not to–eventually life eats them away. In whatever exit, in whatever form. This scares me. No one knows this better than me. I have lost not only things but people […]
I painted this today out of love for lamp posts. I realized it’s more fun to paint things I enjoy painting and not try too hard on pieces I don’t enjoy and am bad at.
My aunt died last July 3rd. She was like a mother to me as most people who knew me would know. I even decided I loved her more than my biological parents. Yes, both parents. Why am I writing this three months after she died, in the middle of the night as I’m trying to […]
I absolutely love owning things: from designer bags to extracted molars. All types of things. They can be gifted, inherited, or bought. I only keep things that bring me joy though, in case St. Marie Kondo sees this post. Maybe that’s why I love books or the mere act of buying and owning books. It’s […]
I’ve been in the research industry for– maybe over 5 years now, that’s already minus my shtick in journalism. In those five years, I’ve done lots, from house-to-house interviews with Overseas Filipino Workers to coding survey questionnaires used by international companies to find out whether or not their employees are happy enough to stay. Investigatory […]
It was a rainy afternoon when I wrote this, what I now will call a paradox or maybe a cliche perhaps. Although it’s raining, I can feel sweat building up underneath my breasts, just like how the rain is puddling up on top of my aunt’s car cover. It is wet, and it’s not quiet. […]
I finally got the tooth out. No one could better describe the pain I’ve put up with because of this tooth better than myself. Every medical exam would get me a comment about my bad tooth. As if I didn’t already knew. Here’s a short background: the year 2014 I went to the dentist to […]
I got naked and went straight to the bathroom. I smoked two sticks easy. That video was more than a trigger, it closed my mind and heart. The smileys I use to try and educate people as much as I can have lost their teeth. Each tooth pulled out without anesthesia, my smile became a […]
